Hello all! 👋
It sure has been awhile. But sometimes life happens. It gets going. You go on auto pilot and truck on through.
I am sitting here in a silent house. 🤫 I was busy cooking our Hello Fresh meal and knew I wouldn't have time to grab our daughter from gymnastics. So my husband went to do it. He took our 2 yr old with him as well.
Dinner is now done and here I sit in a silent house. The dogs are sleeping. No, TV on just silence. It's been so long since I've sat in a silent house. I almost don't know what to do with myself. Kinda like when you finally get alone time.... sometimes as parent you loose touch of you. You become their mom and dad and forget all about you. Self care is so important. I think we all know that. But saying it is important is so much easier than actually cutting time out for YOU. ME time. We need it to detox. A mental break. It's good for the soul.
So while I could be utilizing my time and cleaning my house, which let's face it is NEVER clean, I'm instead going to sit here and enjoy the peace and quiet. It only a short time before the chaos starts again.
Ever have one of those days where EVERYTHING goes wrong? Well, that was my Tuesday! Our son has been sick since Sunday. I wake up he feel warm to both myself and husband. Of course I couldn't find a thermometer anywhere! Things always grow legs when you have children, am I right? I throw shoes on and a jacket to cover up my sag bags (aka breasts) that are still in PJs to run to CVS and grab a thermometer before hubs has to leave for work. I pull in to CVS at 7:44am and they don't open till 8am. UGH!! So much for that quick trip. I run to Lowe's Foods with my d*mn mask while wearing my glasses. I borderline don't want to breathe so I can SEE lol This is why normally when I leave the house contacts are a MUST! Lowe's has ONE thermometer. That's fine one works! I grab it and run! He's late at this point.
I walk in the front door. To find my adorable darling boy peed on the couch while I was gone. I take his temp.... he's fine. So here I am at 8am in my jammies cleaning the pee from my micro fiber couch. I now get the children and dogs fed. Shortly after around 10am I get a business email letting me know the order I placed last Monday was never sent to them due to a glitch in their shipping system. Everything I had ordered is SOLD OUT. I am crushed, ready to cry. Now to hunt for the pieces that were claimed. (I later got my lady friend, hence the waterworks)
I then get a text sayin the application for our fence installation was never received by the HOA. I know they received it because the tracking said they got it LAST Tuesday. While messaging back n forth about this and asking my son about animals he says POOP in a panicked voice. I tell him to go... and he's upset. Apparently he started going already. My phone hits the floor. I grab him under his arms and do the quick-slow run to the bathroom. Praying it doesn't hit the floor on our commute. We made it! His booty hit the potty and then it fell! thank goodness! Now that that mini heart attack is done... the HOA has located my application!
My husband calls and says he's on the way home. He knows it's been a day. he says "I am on my way home maybe you can relax and take a break when I get there". My response "no break for me". And that's the truth folks....
I am an at home mom, yes. I am also a cook, maid, nanny, repairman, nurse, landscaper, dog keeper, children keeper, the man child keeper (hubs) and I am also a business owner.
With all the hats I wear I am still not perfect. I never will be. I am just the head clown in this crazy circus trying to juggle all the moving parts. Somedays are good, some are bad. The key is to take a moment then get up and move one. Try not to dwell on things. Because in that time when everything is falling apart it is only a moment in your life. A moment you will later look back on and laugh!
Are there any moms out there with a child with a severe speech delay? Sebastian, our 2.5yr old, has a severe speech delay. Due to his lack of talking most days are spent with him screaming or screeching. An ear piercing scream its awful.
Most times we take him out its beyond embarrassing. Sunday we went bowling. His first time. He was all about it until he saw the arcade games. He then was doing everything in his power to get to them. The looks we received were awful.
He's in speech 2 days a week. He's signing. Someday are more trying than others. Mentally some days are so wearing that when my husband comes home I have to check out for a bit. Being screamed at alllll day is very hard mentally.
Some say beat his butt.... he doesn't understand. Ignoring him.... doesn't work.
Any other moms out there? Advice? A shoulder?
I feel you. I hear you. I know how it feels. Stop judging the mom with the screaming toddler in public. Shes already melting inside silently the looks are not necessary.