Ups and Downs of weight loss
Let's hop in the time machine......
Freshman in High school me. I was a size zero. I was probably the tallest girl in my class and a size zero. I was probably a 2 MAYBE 4 by the time I was 18. I literally ate a chocolate chip cookie, cool ranch Doritoes and a Ya-hoo for lunch everyday. Lol no joke. I didn't work out or go to the gym. I was naturally thin. I had a high metabolism. The majority of my life I was always under weight. Not because I didn't eat.... trust I ate. I could put some food away! I was just blessed with a amazing metabolism.
Before I got pregnant with my daughter I was a 6. I gave birth in June of 2014. I hit the gym 2x a day. 1hr in the am before work. 1 hour after work. I was in better shape after having my baby than before. I was a size 4.
I was pregnant with our son. Our son reeked havoc on my body. And when I say havoc I'm not joking. Mentally, physically he destroyed me. I had early on issues with our son where I was gaining 5-10 a week in my 1st trimester. I was almost passing out after every meal. If I had any amount of sugar my hands would tremble and I'd be out for the day. My OB told me it was normal. I got a 2nd opinion and was again told everything was fine. My mom, best friend and another friend convinced me to drive 2hrs south to MUSC. One of the BEST hospitals and doctors in our state. My 1st appointment Dr. Soper knew exactly what was going on and it wasn't normal. Turns out I had reactivate hypoglycemia. Basically anytime I had form of sugar or carbs I HAD to pair it with protein. My entire pregnancy my food was limited and monitored. I had the same thing for breakfast everyday. Because it was safe. By my last month eggs made me gag. Lol I had to check my blood sugar 4x a day, I had daily blood thinner injections. I also got a sinus infection that I couldn't kick because I couldn't have real drugs. I literally coughed up blood chuncks the size of quarters for a month or more. I BEGGED them to take him early so I could get better. They obviously didn't. Once I had him I breastfed. I was asked to give up dairy due to him possibly having a milk allergy. After 2wks I could no longer do it. Mentally I was fried. I was sleep deprived and over being on basically a diet for 9 months I just couldn't take it anymore.
Just had a baby.... like all moms we want our bodies back. Because I was so diet controlled throughout my pregnancy going on a diet was mentally out of the question. I wanted to sit down and have the whole burger. Not the burger without the roll and with 3 French fries to keep my levels in check.
Since having our son I have struggled with my weight. Size 10 is not me. Not where I want to be. It has been a journey. Don't get me wrong I am blessed to of carried two babies in my womb. But it still mentally wears on you.
Fast forward to 2020 I gained 20lbs..... I mean who didn't gain weight in quarantine? Lol Nutter Butters were my BFF. Lol I lost weight and got to a 8 before our wedding. I was content with that. Then I lost my grandfather in February. And I was sick. I no joke ate 15 boxes of girl scout cookies in 1 week. And I have no guilt about it. I was sick and my grandfather died due to covid.
Here I am on my weight loss journey AGAIN lol
I am about 3weeks in. A friend asked what my goal weight is.... my response was I don't really have one. I want to trim down. And feel comfortable in a bikini but I'm not looking to be the size 0 I was in HS or the Size 4 after I had my daughter. Due to my arthritis in my knee and my neck injury from a car accident from 10+ years ago I can't go HAM (yes I'm that old lol) in the gym. But right now in this moment.... I am happy with where I'm at with my 1hr on the treadmill at a max of 3mph. I have a man who loves me, loves the body that created our beautiful babies. When I am working on my body I'm doing it for ME. Not for him and not for the people that think because I'm smaller than them I shouldn't work on me. That 1hr on the treadmill is the very rare 60 precious minutes I get to myself.
Do what makes you happy. Don't worry about others. Go out there an make the most of your 60minutes. Push past the arthritis in your knee, the neck injury, the asthma.... push through those things to make yourself stronger mentally and physically don't allow those things to hold you back.
Hello all! 👋
It sure has been awhile. But sometimes life happens. It gets going. You go on auto pilot and truck on through.
I am sitting here in a silent house. 🤫 I was busy cooking our Hello Fresh meal and knew I wouldn't have time to grab our daughter from gymnastics. So my husband went to do it. He took our 2 yr old with him as well.
Dinner is now done and here I sit in a silent house. The dogs are sleeping. No, TV on just silence. It's been so long since I've sat in a silent house. I almost don't know what to do with myself. Kinda like when you finally get alone time.... sometimes as parent you loose touch of you. You become their mom and dad and forget all about you. Self care is so important. I think we all know that. But saying it is important is so much easier than actually cutting time out for YOU. ME time. We need it to detox. A mental break. It's good for the soul.
So while I could be utilizing my time and cleaning my house, which let's face it is NEVER clean, I'm instead going to sit here and enjoy the peace and quiet. It only a short time before the chaos starts again.
Ever have one of those days where EVERYTHING goes wrong? Well, that was my Tuesday! Our son has been sick since Sunday. I wake up he feel warm to both myself and husband. Of course I couldn't find a thermometer anywhere! Things always grow legs when you have children, am I right? I throw shoes on and a jacket to cover up my sag bags (aka breasts) that are still in PJs to run to CVS and grab a thermometer before hubs has to leave for work. I pull in to CVS at 7:44am and they don't open till 8am. UGH!! So much for that quick trip. I run to Lowe's Foods with my d*mn mask while wearing my glasses. I borderline don't want to breathe so I can SEE lol This is why normally when I leave the house contacts are a MUST! Lowe's has ONE thermometer. That's fine one works! I grab it and run! He's late at this point.
I walk in the front door. To find my adorable darling boy peed on the couch while I was gone. I take his temp.... he's fine. So here I am at 8am in my jammies cleaning the pee from my micro fiber couch. I now get the children and dogs fed. Shortly after around 10am I get a business email letting me know the order I placed last Monday was never sent to them due to a glitch in their shipping system. Everything I had ordered is SOLD OUT. I am crushed, ready to cry. Now to hunt for the pieces that were claimed. (I later got my lady friend, hence the waterworks)
I then get a text sayin the application for our fence installation was never received by the HOA. I know they received it because the tracking said they got it LAST Tuesday. While messaging back n forth about this and asking my son about animals he says POOP in a panicked voice. I tell him to go... and he's upset. Apparently he started going already. My phone hits the floor. I grab him under his arms and do the quick-slow run to the bathroom. Praying it doesn't hit the floor on our commute. We made it! His booty hit the potty and then it fell! thank goodness! Now that that mini heart attack is done... the HOA has located my application!
My husband calls and says he's on the way home. He knows it's been a day. he says "I am on my way home maybe you can relax and take a break when I get there". My response "no break for me". And that's the truth folks....
I am an at home mom, yes. I am also a cook, maid, nanny, repairman, nurse, landscaper, dog keeper, children keeper, the man child keeper (hubs) and I am also a business owner.
With all the hats I wear I am still not perfect. I never will be. I am just the head clown in this crazy circus trying to juggle all the moving parts. Somedays are good, some are bad. The key is to take a moment then get up and move one. Try not to dwell on things. Because in that time when everything is falling apart it is only a moment in your life. A moment you will later look back on and laugh!
Homeschool Kinda Life
Who here is homeschooling? 🙋♀️
I feel most of the nation was FORCED to "homeschool" at some point during COVID. We or I actually homeschool our 6 year old. We pulled her from public school 3 weeks before our schools shut down for COVID last year. We pulled her for reasons other than COVID. I was debating on pulling her but a final straw happened and that was that. The teacher, teachers assistant and nurse all "forgot" to give ny at the time 5 year old her inhaler before gym class and recess. I found out only because my 5 year old told me. They didn't take her Asthma seriously. I was even told by the nurse that her asthma action plan from MUSC didn't mean anything that they treat all asthma students the same.
ANYWAYS.... Homeschooling lol 😆 We homeschool. Id be lying if I told yoy I wasn't terrified. Because at 1st I was beyond terrified. Terrified I'd mess her up beyond fixing. I found an amazing support group and leaned on a friend who had been homeschooling her 2 boys for 2 plus years.
We have some good days and bad days. But all in all we both enjoy it. She is now happy to learn again which she wasn't in public school. She also a year ahead on Math. No, surprise there as I use to enjoy math. Homeschooling is not what people were forced to do during the pandemic. Homeschooling is way more flexible than that. We can do a less at the park. A lesson while her brother is attending his speech therapy. Shoot today we did a lesson while I packages up clothing to ship out.
Homeschooling is not for everyone, no. But it is something we do and we truly enjoy it.
This one...this one is going to be HARD. So remember last week I was diagnosed with Strep for the 2nd time ever in my life. I have a history of rheumatic fever and was told by doctors if I even got strep again my heart damage would be worse than the 1st time. Obviously, I was on edge while balancing 2 sick kids as well. Cardiologist wants me in for an echo in 4wks to check my heart.
As if I thought my Wednesday was bad enough... my Thursday came and punched me in the guts! Around 10am on Thursday I got a call from my mother who was in tears. My Grandfather had passed away. My Grandfather was diagnosed with COVID a couple days after Christmas. He was sent by ambulance to the Little Company of Mary Hospital. 6 weeks he was there. We had gotten the ok to finally have him moved across the street to continue Physical Therapy and Oxygen. Wednesday evening he was moved back to ICU. He went into cardiac arrest. My Grandfather spent his last birthday ALONE, the last 6 weeks of his life ALONE. NO visitors. Before COVID he planned to move to Florida to be closer to all of us and watch his Great Grandbabies grow up. COVID stole that from us.
As if losing a loved one isn't hard enough...California is so far behind due to COVID deaths that its taking the mortuaries a couple months to process bodies. Some are turning people away. They have 2 or 3 makeshift morgues because of this. My Grandfather is being cremated. Tulip Creamtory told us about 4 weeks for them to complete the entire process. Losing a loved one is beyond words and pain. But having to hunt someone down to lay our love ones to rest... that's HARD!
So in 4 weeks I now have to load my family of 4 in an airplane for basically a reunion without HIM. Without that sarcastic, jokester of a man. Because of laws in place I now also have to train my 2yr old to keep a mask on for 5 hrs or we can't go. Nothing about this is easy. And it's not over.
My heart, soul, thoughts, my everything goes out to people who not only lose a loved one to COVID, but to people who have to wait a month or more to put them to rest.
RIP GRANDFATHER gone but not forgotten.
No Time To Be Sick
I am a mother. A mother of two. A mother who homeschools. A mother who keeps the house. A mother who cooks. A mother who runs her business. A mother who takes the kids to and from speech and gymnastics. I have many thing I do. Many things I do every day to keep my children, dogs, husband and house happy.
But a mother is not allowed sick days. The past 3 days the children have been sick. Lastnight my ears started to hurt and down along my jaw. I went to bed thought nothing of it. Today around noon my throat was sore. I fed the children lunch. Left them with my husband and went to urgent care.
When I was about 9 years old I got Rheumatic Fever. Basically its when your body gets confused and attacks itself. Its brought on from Strep Throat. I had Aortic Mitral Valve damage done to my heart at the young age of 9. Because of this I have been trained to run to the doctor. Well, I tested positive for Strep today. This is the 2nd time in my entire 32 years I have had Strep. Now what? Do I have more heart damage? Is it normal Strep now? Lots of questions.
But remeber no time for being sick when your a mom. Rather than being in bed I got to bring my 6 and 2 year old to the doctors for their own Strep test. The 6 year old cried. My 2yr old lol hes a foodie! After his sister got her test he BEGGED for his. He thought they fed her something. Lol He did his test like a champ. He was confused why there was nothing to chew lol 😆 Both their test came back negitive but our 6 year old has an ear infection.
I get home get set up in bed and sure enough I get the text that her meds are ready. So I throw on some jeans. Leave my sag bags "loose" in my pj top and throw on my jacket. I had to go in because as if having Strep wasn't enough of an inconvenience..... mother nature decided to bless me with her presence. I am now in bed watching How To Get Away With Murder and eating Girl Scout Cookies.
Judge away.... but this mom is content. Shout out to the moms that do not get sick days or time "off". We got this! Remember one day we will want all of this hot mess life back, when they are off at college.
I know COVID has changed the lives of many. My mom was 1 of the 30k laid off from Disney World. Thankfully she just got a job offer Yesterday and starts training March 1st! Thats almost a whole year not working! Like a few weeks shy of a year!
Sebastian (2.5yr old) had his 1st Haircut at Disney World when he was 10 months old. His hair grows like crazy. He had an at home haircut during quarantine. It HAD to be done his hair was in his eyes. Poor baby.
Well, Sebastian is due for another haircut. The local children's haircut place requires masks. No way is my 2.5yr old staying still in a seat with a haircut. So my boy is again rocking an at home haircut lol hopefully, come HS, when he's wearing pants (speak it in to existence lol) he will have a real cut.
Anyone, else have to give the kiddos haircuts during COVID? SIDENOTE I have no experience or education on this lol
Do You Understand the Words that are Coming Out of my Mouth?
Are there any moms out there with a child with a severe speech delay? Sebastian, our 2.5yr old, has a severe speech delay. Due to his lack of talking most days are spent with him screaming or screeching. An ear piercing scream its awful.
Most times we take him out its beyond embarrassing. Sunday we went bowling. His first time. He was all about it until he saw the arcade games. He then was doing everything in his power to get to them. The looks we received were awful.
He's in speech 2 days a week. He's signing. Someday are more trying than others. Mentally some days are so wearing that when my husband comes home I have to check out for a bit. Being screamed at alllll day is very hard mentally.
Some say beat his butt.... he doesn't understand. Ignoring him.... doesn't work.
Any other moms out there? Advice? A shoulder?
I feel you. I hear you. I know how it feels. Stop judging the mom with the screaming toddler in public. Shes already melting inside silently the looks are not necessary.
The Circus Takes the Road
Well, we took the circus on a road trip. For those of you who don't know we have 2 Great Danes in addition to our 2 and 6 year old. One dane is terrified of nothing (Thor). The other one is scared of EVERYTHING. His name you ask.... Zeus. 🤦♀️ Yep, we need a name redo on this dog. Lol 😆 We have to lift him in to the back of our SUV he won't jump.
Anyways, we surprised our kids with snow in FL! I know sounds so bazaar. But if your looking for fun Snowcat Ridge in Dade City, FL has snow and sledding! The kids LOVED IT!! Let's be honest so did the adults! Back to Zeus... this poor poor pitiful dog stood the entire ride to FL (8+ HRS). Have you ever tried shoving a horse back into the very back of your SUV before to prevent crushing your children? Well, i have!
All in all the circus had a blast on their road trip. Zeus still hasn't submitted his vote to the ballot but he was with his humans....could he even be upset?
Ps. the picture... thats my sun visor to keep the pitiful dog out of the sleeping 6yr old face. Travel with your family you won't forget it. 👨👩👧👦🐶🐶
Naked for Life
We all go through potty training. Stickers, lollipops, M&Ms, Cheerios. Singing potties, seat attachments, throne potties. EVERYTHING. But nothing really prepares you for your own "adventure" lol It's crazy how different your children can be in every aspect of life. My daughter was potty trained at 18 months old. My son we started at 18 months and he was going but he has a speech delay. A severe speech delay. He couldn't tell us he needed to go. So we stopped. We started back up. He is 90% potty trained.... YUP 90% lol He will go #1 and #2 on his own. But once you added pants or underwear or a pull up to the mix he goes in them. He still hauls his little booty to the potty and sits but doesn't take his underwear or pants, etc off. He is naked on the bottom half all day everyday unless we leave the house of course. I often wonder if this child will go through High School in his birthday suit. Just the lower half of thy suit of course. Do you think they will make an exception on the dress code for him? Asking as a concerned parent. In the meantime pass the wine.
The Zoo Keeper
Victoria here! New to this whole blogging thing so bare with me. Its another hat to add to my Jane of All Trades! ;-)
Quick background... I was in Timeshare Sales for 7 years before becoming a Stay at Home Mom. This was a huge struggle for me. Yes, I love my children but leaving behind an "adult world" was hard.
My life has changed quite a bit over the 3 years I have been at home. Aside from regular at home mom duties.... I run a successful Boutique. The Wright Boutique has given me life. Purpose! I have more to do than just wiping butts and noses. lol Somedays I struggle with balance. Someday I have it all together. My life is a roller coaster ride and I wouldn't trade it for the world!
I got a coffee mug for Christmas and it says "Mother: noun 1. glue that holds the family together. Also see: zoo keeper". This mug is life. It is 100% accurate! Do I have any other zoo keepers out there?